Back to the US for a little bit

So these past two months at the orphanage have been a rollercoaster.  I have learned so much.  I have cried so much.  I haven't slept.  I haven't had time to rest.  I have received and given more hugs and kisses than I have in my entire life.  I have felt more love than I ever have before.  I have been the most confused I have ever been.  I think in Spanish.  I dream in Spanish.  At times I can't think in English.  Other times I can't think in Spanish.  Sometimes I have no idea what's going on in my brain, because I'm constantly trying to figure out what language I'm speaking/thinking/etc.  It's crazy!

So after a lot of prayer and discussion with my team we felt like it would be best for me to go back to the US for a few months to raise support with my other team member Jenn in North Carolina.  This feels so right.  At first I was really reluctant, because it didn't make sense to me to leave after I started the internship at the orphanage, because I would have to buy a plane ticket, find a place to live, find a car, etc.  But I decided to go for it and trust in God.  And well no big surprise-- God totally provided!  About a week ago a family from Jenn's church offered to let me stay at their house.  What a blessing!

I'm actually excited to raise support.  I'm excited to tell stories from the orphanage.  I'm excited to share our vision for our own orphanage.  I'm excited to see God work.

I'm also excited to rest.  The past two months have been so draining: emotionally, physically, spiritually. I would get maybe 4-5 hours of sleep a night.  Nonstop working with the kids.  Even though I was constantly surrounded by kids and people I felt so alone.  I've never really felt that kind of loneliness before.  I don't even know how to explain it, but it was hard.  Yes there were people to talk to, but it would be in Spanish.  I have learned a lot of Spanish throughout my time here, but I am still not at the point where I can express myself on that deeper emotional level yet.  So it was hard for me, but God got me through.  I am definitely in need of this time to really spend time in the Word and in prayer to truly seek God as we start support raising.

I am excited to see what God has in store for the time that I will be back in the US.